Hello! Thank you for checking in on my very first blog post! So here it goes. I'm not going to explain what this blog will be about right here (you can find that on the "about" link!), but I would like to share some of my motivation for doing this. If you know me, you know my "story". Who I am, what I do, etc! So for those of you who don't know, I just finished my freshman year of college at the University of Nevada, Reno. I have had say, a more or less typical experience than many people would have in their first year of college. My first year consisted of a lot of events, some big and some small, but nonetheless impactful on my life. I have grown and am continuing to build my relationship with God and Jesus Christ, more than I would have ever imagined in the past, which is a huge and ongoing event. I lost some really good friends, but I gained some even better ones. I changed my major. I ran two half marathons! (that counts as a full.. right?) I have done so many things and so much stuff has happened in the past year, I can't even begin to list it all. Anyways, back to my blog. A lot of the reason why I created this was to start talking about and publishing something that has been greatly affecting me throughout this past year, and that is positive thoughts, self worth, and especially positive body image. As many of you my age or older know, and many of you who are younger will find out, FRESHMAN 15 IS A REAL THING! It happens to the best of us. Before I moved to Reno, I was convinced that I would exercise everyday, eat 100% healthy, and that I would actually lose weight my freshman year of college! Man, was I wrong. Reality set in when I wasn't getting enough sleep due to the newly freed college students running down the halls out to party, and screaming with excitement at 3:00 AM. Reality was that the cafeteria had more desert options than dinner options. It was the fact that I had classes and homework. Reality was that alcohol molecules are shaped, processed, and stored in the body just like sugar molecules (I only drank a few times, I swear). It was that we couldn't even get fresh drinking water in our dorm room, or anywhere in our hall. Even though I was training for my races and going to the gym a few times a week, my body was not well rested, nor was it being nourished properly. The result was that I did gain some weight. This started to really affect me when Adam, my boyfriend of over a year, left for the military. I was sad, lonely, and didn't really know what to do with myself now that he was gone! It took some major adjustments to get through my second semester, but I did it! Anyways, my roommates (love you guys if you're reading), in my mind, were literally perfect! They were so tiny and thin and gorgeous. They didn't have a single ounce of fat on them! They could eat nachos, french fries, gummy worms, and chocolate cake for every single meal and not gain a single pound. OBVIOUSLY, I was, and am, still a little jealous! At this time, I was so down on myself, and I was thinking things like "why doesn't my body function that way", or "why don't I look like them" or any of the other skinny girls I'd see walking through campus. I would also catch myself thinking horrible, negative comments about my body, and I would even avoid looking into the mirror when I would dress or undress. It wasn't until a few days ago, when I realized that I was actually considering taking a high risk, brain-damaging-side-effect, laxative "detoxifying" tea remedy, that figured I really needed to stop. I was actually thinking about doing something that I could risk hospitalizing myself, over nothing! (SkinnyMe Tea- DONT DO IT. The fluids your body can lose from the laxative effect can cause neurological damage). I was making myself so unhappy with all of the negativity that I kept shoving into my brain. I kept telling myself that I hated the way I looked, but why? I shouldn't!! And that is the problem. Our society today has created such a negative atmosphere when it comes to our bodies. The media puts out professionally edited pictures of models so that they look a certain way that is realistically unachievable for most people. They show us that beauty, sexy, and pretty only comes in one size, shape, or form. It has made an atmosphere where it is more acceptable to talk about the things you hate about your body than the features that you love. The more that I think about all of this, the more it pisses me off! Why should I be beating myself up over something that is photoshopped anyway? No one should feel that they aren't worthy of being pretty because they aren't a size zero, or that they don't have an ideal, hourglass-shape figure. There is absolutely nothing wrong with being skinny, thin, fit, big boned, heavy, overweight, short, or tall. You are your own person. I AM MY OWN PERSON. And because of this, we are all beautiful in our own way. Anyway, the point of this blog and this post is that I don't care what is out there on television or in magazines, I need to appreciate my body and all that it can do. I need to realize that I am strong, that I am fit, and that the little numbers on the scale don't portray my abilities in life. I want to promote a positive lifestyle that includes good, healthy, and nourishing food. I want to be as active as I possibly can. And I want to help YOU do that, too! This blog won't have much for a while, but I hope to have it develop along with my personal development, towards maximum health. I can't do any of this without my faith, good food, fitness, and most important, POSITIVITY! I really hope you all will support me through this transformation, and I will support you too. Thank you so much for reading!